Spring Wants

The shit I tell myself

This is my wannabe haiku

Over

Know your worth

I'm Doin Me #np

Deserve ...More

Growing pains - #6 #np

 shhh ends in silence ironic


s/n I love the song "In the morning" by Kelis- I close my eyes and pretend Pharell  is talking to me.

Guarantees

Red lights mean hot doughnuts

Cards say you are loved, you are invited

Hellos, and thank yous show appreciation

Phone calls mean thinking of you. . . . I need you advice I need your wisdom

Life has a few guarantees, I don't know what I can guarantee the people who have love/luv (there is a difference)
for me.

Its got me thinking sometimes I can guarantee a shoulder to vent on, a funny joke, a crazy memory, an honest opinion or a caring genuine spirit.

I try not to find validation for anything in anyone but subconsciously it happens.
I am me , I am  a giver, a pleaser, a mediator. But what happens when:
 I have none left to give
You take too much
My happiness doesn't penetrate your bubble
I decide not to take sides and my opinion matters less
I need you
What happens when I you can't guarantee me anything

Glad that God can guarantee me EVERYTHING

Whats in my cup?

Equal parts Sprite and Three Olives Purple!  My new fav!

Anybody else, wanna know what he was saying?

Lately

uggh ,LaTeLY I have been quite the "debbie downer"...
just plain lazy too!

On my days off I feel like my brain is at a complete stand still. I have no desire to be depressed, everytime I "snap" myself out of it. I go right back in?

Refocusing my energy elsewhere is not working...isolation is no longer my solace. But I kinda loathe being around even those I LOVE. I will get better..time will tell everything. Getting evaluated on my job, which in the past has been a wonderful experience. But I digress that I am not always the best ME I can be. Which stifles my productivity but I do what I can considering the things I have to work with.... off to find a moving company, go to the gym and work and find time to cook, and think about dating again.

teigh

Sometimes I isolate myself
I let people see bits and pieces of me
I'm still trying to make sense of it, so I cant take criticism unless in mini doses.


Loving the Love Letter album, and LTTP!
i'm convinced I am a hopeless romantic, or maybe I like the idea of romance?


I have a ton of things in my closet yet I still have nothing to wear, i've added color to my clothing/accessory palette in the form of a blue purse! 


Cutting my hair shorter tomorrow better my hair than my wrists! - Yep I said it but I scratched it  2011 is my SEASON