High Teigh
The Growth and occasional shrinking of a Young African American Female....Just her thoughts
Sunday, March 27, 2011
The shit I tell myself
This is my wannabe haiku
Over
Know your worth
I'm Doin Me #np
Deserve ...More
Growing pains - #6 #np
shhh ends in silence ironic
s/n I love the song "In the morning" by Kelis- I close my eyes and pretend Pharell is talking to me.
Over
Know your worth
I'm Doin Me #np
Deserve ...More
Growing pains - #6 #np
shhh ends in silence ironic
s/n I love the song "In the morning" by Kelis- I close my eyes and pretend Pharell is talking to me.
Guarantees
Red lights mean hot doughnuts
Cards say you are loved, you are invited
Hellos, and thank yous show appreciation
Phone calls mean thinking of you. . . . I need you advice I need your wisdom
Life has a few guarantees, I don't know what I can guarantee the people who have love/luv (there is a difference)
for me.
Its got me thinking sometimes I can guarantee a shoulder to vent on, a funny joke, a crazy memory, an honest opinion or a caring genuine spirit.
I try not to find validation for anything in anyone but subconsciously it happens.
I am me , I am a giver, a pleaser, a mediator. But what happens when:
I have none left to give
You take too much
My happiness doesn't penetrate your bubble
I decide not to take sides and my opinion matters less
I need you
What happens when I you can't guarantee me anything
Glad that God can guarantee me EVERYTHING
Cards say you are loved, you are invited
Hellos, and thank yous show appreciation
Phone calls mean thinking of you. . . . I need you advice I need your wisdom
Life has a few guarantees, I don't know what I can guarantee the people who have love/luv (there is a difference)
for me.
Its got me thinking sometimes I can guarantee a shoulder to vent on, a funny joke, a crazy memory, an honest opinion or a caring genuine spirit.
I try not to find validation for anything in anyone but subconsciously it happens.
I am me , I am a giver, a pleaser, a mediator. But what happens when:
I have none left to give
You take too much
My happiness doesn't penetrate your bubble
I decide not to take sides and my opinion matters less
I need you
What happens when I you can't guarantee me anything
Glad that God can guarantee me EVERYTHING
Friday, March 25, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Lately
uggh ,LaTeLY I have been quite the "debbie downer"...
just plain lazy too!
On my days off I feel like my brain is at a complete stand still. I have no desire to be depressed, everytime I "snap" myself out of it. I go right back in?
Refocusing my energy elsewhere is not working...isolation is no longer my solace. But I kinda loathe being around even those I LOVE. I will get better..time will tell everything. Getting evaluated on my job, which in the past has been a wonderful experience. But I digress that I am not always the best ME I can be. Which stifles my productivity but I do what I can considering the things I have to work with.... off to find a moving company, go to the gym and work and find time to cook, and think about dating again.
teigh
just plain lazy too!
On my days off I feel like my brain is at a complete stand still. I have no desire to be depressed, everytime I "snap" myself out of it. I go right back in?
Refocusing my energy elsewhere is not working...isolation is no longer my solace. But I kinda loathe being around even those I LOVE. I will get better..time will tell everything. Getting evaluated on my job, which in the past has been a wonderful experience. But I digress that I am not always the best ME I can be. Which stifles my productivity but I do what I can considering the things I have to work with.... off to find a moving company, go to the gym and work and find time to cook, and think about dating again.
teigh
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Sometimes I isolate myself
I let people see bits and pieces of me
I'm still trying to make sense of it, so I cant take criticism unless in mini doses.
Loving the Love Letter album, and LTTP!
i'm convinced I am a hopeless romantic, or maybe I like the idea of romance?
I have a ton of things in my closet yet I still have nothing to wear, i've added color to my clothing/accessory palette in the form of a blue purse!
Cutting my hair shorter tomorrowbetter my hair than my wrists! - Yep I said it but I scratched it 2011 is my SEASON
I let people see bits and pieces of me
I'm still trying to make sense of it, so I cant take criticism unless in mini doses.
Loving the Love Letter album, and LTTP!
i'm convinced I am a hopeless romantic, or maybe I like the idea of romance?
I have a ton of things in my closet yet I still have nothing to wear, i've added color to my clothing/accessory palette in the form of a blue purse!
Cutting my hair shorter tomorrow
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